Can't Even Stand Myself

I am in such a foul mood. Ugh! I mean it! I don't even want to be around me! I feel so negative! Negativity is literally oozing from my pores! I want to go take a nap. I want to go home and vegetate. I want to be anywhere but here at work.

I am so full of angst and fatigue and anger and frustration and resentment. I hate when I feel like this. It's my own fault. I feel myself falling in to some patterns of behavior that are so unlike me. I'm not using my normal coping strategies. I'm gradually turning to some rather unhealthy ones.

I have some issues with some people in my life, but I don't want to say anything. For various reasons.

Holding all this in is getting to me.

I feel so far behind on all of my goals...for the house, for my finances, for my health.

I really think I need a vacation. Or a three day weekend at least. I've worked so many weeks with only weekends off- I think it's finally getting to me. 9-10 hour days, 5 days a week. I need some time to do something other than work.

But of course, on the weekends, I scramble around to try to play catch up for what I'm not getting done through the week.

I wish I were a bear...because people expect them to be grumpy, and it would be perfectly acceptable behavior for me to hibernate and ignore everything and everybody for a whole winter. :) Sounds like a plan to me!